Miss it so much it hurts

I miss being pregnant. It's as simple and as painful as that.
I miss the sore boobs, the fact that I even went up a bra size (12B to 12C). I loved the blue veins that were appearing.
I miss the pulling and stretching feellings of my uterus.
I miss the full feeling and that I couldn't lie on my stomach.
I miss the fatigue and lying down after work.
I miss the glowing skin and glossy thick hair.
I miss the secret feeling, walking around knowing there was a baby inside me.
I miss the nausea.
I miss the delicious feeling that I would be leaving work and giving birth in October.
I loved the way my changing body turned my husband on. He loved the new curves.
I loved everything about it.
Now I just have a dull ache were my baby used to be.
Now I have to go back to work and pretend I give a shit and everything is normal.