Protocol

This seems to be taking forever. I rang the hospital today to get my protocol which is as follows:
Start Syneral, 11th Nov.
Stop taking the, pill 17th Nov.
First scan 24th Nov.

I'm going to be a couple of pills short so will have to get a new script, strangely there are a couple of pills in this packet that are crushed. All being well I pick up my Gonal-F after the scan. The pill is still making me nauseous, but so far I've only had a few headaches not any full on migraines. I've also been spotting, I don't remember this happening during my two previous down reg. cycles.

I can now obsessively add these dates to my diary and get a rough idea of ER, all being well. As we are winding down at work, it is not as stressful to leave classes. Then I can also count and check months in the hope that I will get pregnant, this is something I do every transfer. I also marked in the weeks when I was pregnant and then had to go back and scribble over them.

I have been up and down over the past two weeks. Some days have been really bad and I walk around work tearing up. On Tuesday F (Hen) came down with her baby, I was flat out , but also too teary to leave my office. She came and got me as I was going over to the staffroom to photocopy anyway. We chatted at the photocopier and pissed ourselves about a certain staff member who has taken it upon herself to be our "weight watcher". The latest bithcy comment was to my SIL a week after she had given birth "When are you due?". I could do a whole post on this cow. Any way I asked her if baby F was here and she said he was in the staffroom, so I said I would go and see him. F could see I was struggling and said I didn't have to, but I did and although I was too close to losing it to hold him, I'm glad I did go and see him. Every time I think about how kind F was to me I want to cry. I was ok enough to organise a massive Cocks and Hens for the last day of term at a bar in the city. Everyone is keen and organising baby sitters. These are usually blinders we go to a different venue each year, it's the best way to unwind from the school year. Even though I look forward to this, I would be happy to be not drinking because this latest cycle worked.

I also had my long service leave approved. Now J has to organise his and we have to decide where to go. Next year I teach for 6 weeks and then we start holidays that are at the same time as the Commonwealth Games. We both thought that getting out of Melbourne during this time would be a good idea. I don't go back to work until the start of July. I can pretend to be a lady of leisure for 18 weeks. I also keep imagining how fantastic my garden will be.