Embarrassing moment

I must be getting better as on the weekend we went to a wedding of one of my work colleagues. There is a group of us at school ( cocks and hens) and we go out drinking, socialising and to each others weddings. Yes we are a bit of a clique especially the hens (6 of us).

Any way M was getting married and he knew that I was pregnant. Only problem was that someone forgot to tell him that I miscarried and the last few weeks at work I have kept my head down and haven't been able to speak about it.

The wedding was 3 hours out of the city, so we all went up on the Friday night. We all had dinner at the pub. The bride to be came up to me and said congratulations. It was doubly embarrassing as my SIL and close friend (hens) are noticeably pregnant and it was directed at them as well. The funny thing was though that I found myself reassuring the mortified bride to be that every thing was ok and it was 4 weeks ago. It's stressful enough before your wedding.

I won't say that I was completely ok all weekend as I wasn't. Especially in private with my husband. And sometimes it was hard with the attention that my pregnant friends got. It seemed that there were many conversations and references to pregnancy all weekend. And of course I thought about how I would have been showing and what I would have worn. However I did seem to be able to deflect some of the pain. Maybe I'm just becoming better at wearing the mask. Or may be it was all the bubbly and red we started drinking at lunchtime and kept going until late at night.