Down Under

I created this blog to help me as I go through IVF. I feel quite isolated and have found other blogs very helpful. I need somewhere to vent and ramble on, whilst I'm probed and prodded down under.

Tuesday, February 28, 2006

7 or 8

I have had two scans over the last 4 days and it looks like I have about 15 follicles. Trigger is tonight and ER is on Thursday. I actually can't remember what number IVF I'm up to. It's partly Gonal-F brain syndrome and partly that they all blur into one.

Before I started writing this an exstudent came to see us. He came to say that he has started uni and loves it. He was conceived through IVF(he told his class in science), I'm guessing among the first in Victoria. He is a sweet, intelligent and thoroughly nice person. I sat there wishing, hoping that this cycle works. I know it has worked before, but with each failure I'm losing hope. On Saturday it will be a year since I miscarried in very public (and a little embarrassing) circumstances.

I didn't go to pilates last night as I'm quite sore and uncomfortable. The thought of squeezing any of my stomach muscles was too much. I'll wag yoga tonight for the same reason. I'm very bloated around the middle. Only one more day of fitting in to work clothes then it's tracky dacs for the next 4 or 5. I also have been having bouts of nausea off and on.

I'll report back after ER and let's hope a better fertilization rate than last time.

Saturday, February 18, 2006

No urban legends here.

After two months off any stims and ovulating naturally from both ovaries in January I'm not pregnant. So I'm not one of those "so and so knows someone's neighbours second cousin who got pregnant waiting to do IVF blah blah blah....," puke puke.

Today I started Syneral and tomorrow 250 shots of Gonal-F. It will be a flare cycle as I have had better fertilisation rates with flares in the past. Having said that I also know how things can randomly go good to bad or bad to good within hours.

Long service leave getting closer. Actually 15 days of teaching to go. I must say it has been a stressful start to the term as I am part of a new program at school where we have 3 and 4 classes of Year 7's mixed in together. (Think the 70's, no walls between classrooms). I actually think it's a push for the Government to make us take bigger classes. We have also been teaching in a building site as the complex is half finished and this has added to the stress. We have put up with teaching our first lesson on the netball courts, tradies constantly in our classrooms, jackhammering outside the door, walking through rubble that turns to mud when it rains and the wall of the classroom being peeled off mid lesson the other day. Add to that one of the teams I'm in it feels natural to team teach with, the other is quite stressful and we share very different ideas on behaviour. Call me old fashioned but I like some classroom control. When I come back to work on the 3rd of July it will be to a new learning centre. I just hope that we will be able to divide them back into classrooms when this theory goes out of fashion again.

I'll report back after I know my scan results which will be Friday 24th Feb. In the meantine last glass of red tonight before stims tomorrow night. Actually the wine tastes like metho and being the one glass wonder that I am I already feel pissed.