Down Under

I created this blog to help me as I go through IVF. I feel quite isolated and have found other blogs very helpful. I need somewhere to vent and ramble on, whilst I'm probed and prodded down under.

Wednesday, November 15, 2006


Just a quick update from work.

On Sunday we transferred two embryos, thawed out perfectly. I always hold my breath and get nervy about the phone ringing before hand. As usual they looked good on the screen. I just wish my ute would stop murdering them.

Good thing was I ovulated on Thursday so I didn't have to miss any work and could transfer on the Sunday. Some one I work with and can't stand had a go about the time off I've had. I was so upset as it's none of her business, I always have a Drs certificate and I still have 154 sick days that I've never used. The real piss off is that she is often away, probably more than me.

The Drs roster around on Sundays and I had a nice lady Dr. She was pregnant, I tried to avoid looking at her stomach, but J saw it as a good sign. I'm over signs and omens and I'm over positive thinking and any thing like that. It just makes me feel crazy.

A bit peeved at the price of a natural thaw cycle which has risen nearly 30%, I said to J it's not like any new technique or research has been added to the cycle, so why has it gone up by so much?

I think that was our 14th or 15th transfer, I've lost count. We have one embryo in storage.

Now the dreaded two week wait and no alcohol or coffee.

Also add Cup Day party went well. Unfortunately I forgot to eat except for a cup cake and champange. Then I ate a salad roll after everyone had gone. An hour later I threw it all up. I didn't feel drunk, but must have been. I had already got my present from J which was tickets to Dwight Yoakam I took a friend along as I know J would rather slash his wrists than sit through a country music concert. I felt so happy at the concert, I realised that a lot of the time I'm sad and unhappy, although I usually hide it from everyone.

I have been gradually catching up on people's blogs. I'm a little paranoid about reading and posting at work, in case I'm busted. After reports are out of the way I'll have a lot more time to read and post.

Wednesday, November 01, 2006

update, nothing new

I need to update as a record of what I have gone through, but I feel that it is disappointing for people as it is a list of -ve news.
The FET in June didn't work, nor did the one in July which was one embryo thawed out and one that didn't make it.

Then August 22 eggs and only 4 embryos. Two fresh and two for a FET and again nothing.

October and another Fresh cycle 18 eggs, lower dose of gonal. Five embryos.

Last week got a zero, after stupidly doing a POS test and getting two lines Friday and Saturday and then realising it was only 10 days after the trigger.

Now waiting for a wanding on Friday and will begin wee tests for a natural thaw cycle.

Still could be worse , caught up with a friend today who lost all 9 embryos in the thaw. She started down reg again today.

I just went through my stats, I'm not sure if they are completely accurate as I may have missed some.
149 eggs collected
36 embryos
5 died on thaw
6 Fresh transfers
7 FETs
one miscarriage
Making me feel like a total loser.

Looking forward to the Melbourne blogger meeting and my Melbourne Cup party where I will get off my brain. Actually bought some posh champange today Moet and Chandon (and I haven't even paid off my IVF bills!!!) The guy in the bottle shop asked if it was a gift and if I wanted it wrapped and seemed very surprised that it was for me and I wasn't even going to the cup. It was partly my birthday present to myself and I'll share it with my girlfriends.